Steam Black Glutinous Brownies (Brownies Kukus Ketan Hitam) no food additives

I bought the black glutinous flour few weeks back, but have not had the feel to bake. Yesterday as I was browsing for new recipe, I found this interesting receipt from http://ummufatima-mysimplykitchen.blogspot.com blog. The recipe can be found in her blog. This is my first time backing black flutinous brownies, surprisingly it was a success :). I used margarine instead of oil since I still have left over margarine in my storage. The texture is like describe in Ummu's blog. Thank you Ummu for the perfect recipe. I will surely keep it in my recipe book.

My dad love it, he said taste like coffee? I told him is chocolate & cocoa powder.

Healthy, delicious brownies :)

Lunch @ Poulet Chinatown Point

1. Sauteed mushroom with poached egg
2. BBQ Chicken (I forgot whats the menu name)
3. Tuna Sandwich

One fine Saturday, I had lunch with my bestfriend for almost 15 years now...She is my secondary classmate in Singapore.

The entree was my favourites among the 3 menus we ordered. I love the texture of the sauteed mushroom, soft and chewy with the melted eggyolk completes the dish. BBQ chicken or actually roasted chicken is a big portion for 1 person, but if you are sharing will be just great. The cream sauce is only a thin layer on the plate which make the roasted chicken not soggy.

The Tuna Sandwich is a disappointment as it just taste like a croissant that you buy from bakery and filled with can tuna, I didnot enjoy this sandwich. I feel that Delifrance Tuna Sandwich leave me a better memory than this one. I had not eaten Delifrance for years, but I still remember that their croissant has the right texture and heat when they serve you. I must say the potato chips are fried with the right temperature, so thankfully the sandwich is serve with a crunchy chips to cover up for the disappointing sandwich.

Poulet Restaurant in Chinatown Point, will be one of visited restaurant when I am in Singapore :)

Eat moderately and appreciate them with every bite ....

You can't runaway from Death

Recently my cousin who is only 34 years old pass away suddenly...its a tragic news for his family especially for his mother who has just came back from a short tour to Vietnam. He pass away peacefully one day after his holiday trip with his mother. Probably due to block artery to his brain, as he had a mini stroke while he was in Vietnam, but thanks to miracle of some vitamin, his stroke recover quickly, though he should have gone to the doctor when he came back from holiday. He has escape death once, when he had a single car accident two years ago...broke one of his leg badly. He was strong to fight back for good health though he was unable to control his smoking addiction...

My point of view of this event is that he has been freed from this harsh world and happily living in Heaven with his father and a new mother who was send by God to accompany him in Heaven.

He pass away on the 8th May 2013, stored in Cold room number 8, Funeral room number 8...what a sweet number 888...to make it surprisingly coincidence, the Funeral room next door is an old lady with the same name as his mother...That is why I feel that God is so kind to him, to send him another mother to guide him in Heaven.

Last words from his sister before the cremation, My cousin is a good and though guy, man of a little words but show his care through actions...and he has fully completed his tasks in this world and little sins so God call him to be with his side. A man who care for his mother, sisters, nieces will always be remembered beautifully. We on the other hand still have tasks and many sins that we are left to live in this world.

Lets do our part a God's children to make this world a better and peaceful place to live in.

May my cousin Rest In Peace in Heaven.

Thank you God for giving me the live and family who still care for me....

Stuck between the 70s and 21st Century

Its been a while since my last post. My life seems has not been moving anywhere. Living and helping my parents in their small hardware shop and feeling miserable. Some people say that God will not give us a challenge beyond our limit, I hope its true as I have no more strength to carry on with this condition.

Daily, I set my alarm at 6.30 am, but really I will be wide awake only at 8am...Waking up sometimes feeling useless and little motivation, deeply I know that I have to be strong for myself. I worked with my parents for almost 2 years now and the last 1 year almost unpaid except for the transfer in Jan 13. The reason the transfer stopped, my mom thinks that I use the money for someone else. Its my money its my right? Or her right to make her daughter miserable? 2 years ago I gave up my job who can support me well to return to my hometown to help their business. Did not turn out too good, they are angry with me for dating someone that they dont like.

The truth about marriage in Indonesia, especially Chinese traditional family is still about the parents preference rather than the daughter's true happiness. They still believe in "SIFU" who can predict other people lives and sometimes come close to ruining the mother-daughter relationship. To make it worse, we need lots of paper work from the local council and also letter of approval from parents to get marriage.

My parents repeatedly mentioned that they will dis-own me if I choose to marry this man that I love. Shattered between my parents and boyfriend, often ending up shedding tears and having panda eyes in the morning >< Few uncles has tried to open up my parents close minded brain, yet they have no respond.

One word...I tried to go on but I am too tired to fight on :(