I won't give up worshiping

Yesterday was horrid, I felt so depressed and angry with myself. Thank God after talking to a close friend, I was still able to move myself to attend the dharma class held in my house of worship. A guest priest, gave me light and hope to go on to worship and believe that my problems will be solved by my GOD.

I find peace in my house of worship, I longed for a love from a family and more from a mother. The argument yesterday started with a small argument. I just wanted to get some gift for a friend who is coming from overseas to visit her parents and my mom felt that its not important. I felt she forgot that when my sister came for visit, their mom gave my sister a give for her daughter. She just dont know how to give a little more...So I asked my father and later mom just said don't need to meddle ... the argument happened in their shop. I suddently blurred out, "dont you want our relationship to get better?" then mom said " you eat your dad's heart by not listening to them to break up with my current boyfriend"

The story behind this is, my mom went to some fortune teller to ask about my boyfriend and me, and supposedly 2-3 of them said that our future is not good. One said that we have potential to divorce, for God sake, we are not even married and they can say we will be divorce? Are they GOD???? I HATE FORTUNE TELLER....I feel that my life is ruin by those who believe in Fortune teller and those Fortune tellers.

Although I am not Christian, sometimes I feel that being Christian is the best, they do not believe in Fortune teller and marriage seem to be so much easier for them than those that believe in Fortune Teller to predict their future. Our lives pathway can change depending our actions ...

I have heart ached and gastric pain ... it comes and go ...I have been having hives attacked for the past few weeks, I suspect is my depression getting to its toll. I hope GOD will help me and bring me miracle.

Just when I am about to give up in GOD, there are people around me to remind me that GOD will not give his child a challenge that he/she can't overcome. Thank you God for giving me this problems, I believe it will help me to become a better and stronger person. :)